Back after a a break!

and yes... I am back after a long long break.. can't believe my last post in 2008...
today I promise myself to be more active...and make my presence felt almost everyday in here! :)

Blessing..!

I am trying very hard to write a post here... but somehow..life is such.. a pain!
um..ummmmm... what is something that made me smile.. today...hmmm...

Everyday from some 10 days I pray, I pray that God gives me the right direction, a direction which is the right for me and probably which I do not understand myself and today I got it... I got His blessing.. :)

He always comes to my rescue! I know I have given the hardest examinations and yet I believe I am his favourite...That belief never shook..

My resolve

Well i decided two days back.. I would post everyday...on this blog.. about something..something that made me happy..during the entire day..

It could be anything...

I am hoping I do find something.. even minutely happy.. in my miserable days!! :)

Hm.. for today... well I used to think.. I am the only grown up kid...to moan... or say mummy in sleep... interestingly I found one more!!! hehe!

Known stranger

Today is a very weird and painful day...but... a sweet incident lightened my heart.

While in flight, lost in my thoughts, I noticed a smart looking guy pass by. I felt happy to see him..and i tried to place him..but still wasnt very sure. Thought of going off to talk to him..but decided to delay till we deplaned at Kolkata.

As I had planned, I waited eagerly at the end of the aero bridge for the stranger. I approached and surprised the unexpecting man. Like I had thought... he turned out to be the man I used to admire, whose comp knowldege I had heard so much about, who used to teach comp science when I was in Class 3!!!!!! He had never taught me and yet I rememebered him. His wife had taught me bio in Class 11.

Later I ended up talking to Mrs Anupama Chopra, his wife, who is now the principal of BBPS, Manesar!

To the man's shock and amazement a little girl of 12 remembered his brief stint in BBPS :). It was lovely to meet him at Kolkata, a place which seems to be ... another world altogether.

16th Feb, Saturday

The most amazing day in the previous 9 months.

I went with S & Family to ISB Fiesta. The Most Awesome part was Atif Asalam's performance!!!!!!! The guy has the loveliest and the deepest voice :) . The lyrics, the sound quality and the "Man in flesh and Blood" - all truly AWESOME!

The guy truly rocks! It seemed he was far away from the world, lost in his soulful songs.

His songs uplifted my spirits and enlightened my soul. It was as if I dint see my friends, I dint know where I was. Totally unaware of any living soul and the uncountable fears that paralyse my mind, I swayed to the beautiful rhythm.

I lost myself in the melliflous world of his tunes and.......
....................I never want to be found again!

Heart beats

Heart beats
My heart beats..
Nobody knows why my heart beats!!!!!!

Any guesses??
Well this was my first brush with Rap :) I was totally in awe of the music and the lyrics and the guy himself! Too embarassed to openly reveal my liking of the music, I had secretly purchased the album, smuggled it to my room and immersed myself into the melody!

And what amazes me most is.... this album was released in 1992!! Gosh...it just means I was ONLY 10 years old!! or more like 10 years young!! hehe

Well, as the years had gone by, the guy and his music had sedimented somewhere in the depths of my memory...and then suddenly this saturday I heard

Dil Dhadke
Mera dil dhadke
Koi nahin janee baba kyun dhadke!!!!!!

Marks & Spencers!!!

It been long since something interesting happened..but it just did yesterday!!!

I have a friend who has a passion for foreign brands and consecutively little liking for Indian brands.. She says "How can one wear trousers from "Pantaloons"...they are so ill fitting and the material is so NOT GOOD ..the edges get frayed.. Try trousers from NeXT. I just bought one for 3500 and I totally love em..totally worth it." I listen quietly and for some time wonder how overpriced "Marks & Spencers", "NeXT", "GueSS" are...I am not convinced but my conviction/reasons don't matter...

The thought leaves me...

I goto the washroom and have the scariest thought!!! My children will be like her!
Oh God.........Noooooooooooooooo!! All the logic for them becoming like my friend is in place. She is stylish, finicky and spoilt... not because she was born that way but because her parents had toiled hard to reach a lifestyle where she could touch a fabric and scream 'Yuck' or 'Wow' uncaring about its price. Obiviously now she deserves to live the way she wants to, desire what entices her as she has toiled even harder than her parents!

If you understand obiviously my friend or her choices don't bother/affect me! It's something else. One life's truth hit me!! All our lives we work hard to give a better future to our children. It just means that we give our lives for the benefit of our children and by the time we achieve a beautiful life for ourselves and them we are too near our own death beds to enjoy what we toiled to build!!! and while we are no more...the lives of the coming generations improve ..step by step.

I see my grandparents and my parents and now myself... I know what it would be like for my children! and theirs. I, myself, am not ruffled at the thought/action of buying a shirt costing 1k.. my children would surely feel nothing buying one for 3k and so.... "Marks & Spencers" it is!!!

And now the loveliest conversation.. I am sharing my fears with my best friend.

AU - (Narrate my fears)
AK - Koi sawaal nahi hai. Mere bachey to bilkul aise nahi hongey. I will sit on my money.
AU - But mine will be...sadly
AK - Mere bachey ghar aake kahengey "Pitaji auntie ke bachey kitne nakchide hain... woh humko tang kar rahe the for the new clothes from Pantaloons"
AU - Mine will say..."Mum...uncles Amol's kids are so down market..."

AK - Tere aur mere bachon ki kabhie nahi banegi.
AU - Banegi at emotional levels...otherwise kategi... they will hate each other... Mere bachey khayengey "Baskin Robbins" and your will eat "Dahi Bhalla" at road side.
AK - Nahin, khaney main koi kami nahi karoonga main... Jo woh khana chahengey milega...unko branded or unbranded...costly or cheap.
(Amol obiviously cant bear the thought of no Baskin Robbins for his kids...he is such a khabooda himself. It is not for his kids he is concerned...if they dont have it would eventually mean that he wudnt be able to have too!!!!! This thought is obviously too much for my friend!!)

AK - Mere bachey tere bachon ki plate se sab kha jaya karengey.
AU - Ya and my kids will come home running and crying saying... "Does uncle Amol not give food to his children?... Are they having a famine?? in their house?"
(Saale Amol! This is exactly what he used to do with me! We would order 2 things. He would finish his portion in a jiffy...and without invitation start off with mine!!!!! Kameene)

The loveliest thought - "Kaash main apne bachon ki bachi hoti!!!"